Praynlady's Blessings & Other Fun Stuff: Another Poem I found from mid 2005....

Monday, February 13, 2006

Another Poem I found from mid 2005....

My Day

I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND I DRAG MYSELF FROM BED
THE ONLY THING NOT HURTING ON MY BODY, IS MY HEAD.
I HEAD OVER TO THE BATHROOM WHERE EVERYTHING SHOULD BE ALRIGHT,

IT’S NOT EASY, GOD JUST LOOK AT ME I REALLY AM A SIGHT.
I CAN HARDLY WALK, AND CANNOT LAY, IT EVEN HURTS TO STAND
BUT I PUT MY SUNNY SMILE ON AND MY DAY I START TO PLAN.
IT DOESN’T TAKE ME LONG TO REALIZE THAT TODAY WILL BE THE SAME,
AS EVERY DAY BEFORE IT, OK, GOD, WHO PUT OUT MY FLAME?
MY HUSBAND, FRIENDS AND FAMILY, I WILL NOT LET THEM SEE ME HURT,
I MUST KEEP ON SMILING OUTWARD, CUZ THE INSIDE FEELS LIKE DIRT.
I WILL LUMBER TO THE KITCHEN TO FIND SOMETHING TO EAT,
STANDING IS A PROBLEM SO I GIVE UP AND TAKE A SEAT.
I SPEND MOST OF MY DAY SITTING IN A CHAIR THAT DOESN’T FIT
I REALLY CANT GO ANY FURTHER FROM MY HOME THAN I CAN SPIT.
CLEANING HOUSE AND COOKING DINNER, THESE ARE TASKS I CANNOT DO,
BUT I DO THEM AND I SUFFER AND ONE MORE DAY I MAKE IT THROUGH.
I REALLY SHOULD BE THANKFUL, I’M ALIVE AND I HAVE BREATH,
THOUGH I’M PREPARED FOR THE ALTERNATIVE, I’M NOT READY FOR MY DEATH.
MY FAMILY THEY ARE’NT SUFFRING, CUZ I WOULD NOT LET THAT BE,
IT’S MY JOB TO CARE FOR ALL OF THEM, DOESN’T ANYBODY SEE?
I AM PAINFULLY AWARE OF ALL THE THINGS I LEAVE UNDONE,
THOUGH I KNOW THAT SOMETIME SOON THIS PAINFUL BATTLE I’LL HAVE WON.
UNTIL THEN I KEEP ON SMILING, WHILE THERE IS NO ONE HERE TO HELP,
AND I WAIT TILL NIGHT TIME COMES, WHEN I CAN LAY BACK DOWN AND WHELP.
IT IS AFTER I LAY DOWN AT NIGHT THAT THE TEARS THEY COME FOR REAL,
AND I GIVE TO GOD THE PAIN AND ALL THE HURT THAT I STLL FEEL.
I KNOW ONE DAY HE’LL TAKE IT AND THROW IT AWAY WHERE IT BELONGS,
UNTIL THEN I’LL JUST KEEP GOING ASKING FORGIVENESS FOR MY WRONGS.
SO HUSBAND, FRIENDS AND FAMILY PLEASE FORGIVE ME WHEN I CRY,
AS I’D JUST AS SOON TELL ALL MY SORROW THAT ITS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE.
I WOULD LOVE TO SIT IN HEAVEN, NO MORE PAIN WOULD I HAVE THERE,
BUT I LIKE TO THINK WITHOUT ME MY FAMILIES LIVES WOULD BE SO BARE.
SO I TAKE IT AND I TAKE IT, SOMETIMES JUST MAKING IT EACH DAY,
AND I CONTEMPLATE WHAT LIFE WILL BE LIKE WHEN MY PAIN HAS GONE AWAY.

Colleen Cooper
5-25-2005

// posted by praynlady @ Monday, February 13, 2006