Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Just something that came to mind!
Family is family and friends are friends, but in order to be valued as such, we should act like it.
Some take longer than others!
Ever wonder why women feel so frustrated with men? Well, it could have something to do with how we are treated. It could have something to do with the lack of way we are treated. It could be a combination of the two with a few additives of other junk. I am not sure but I do know that it causes some unrest in my household.
I sometimes think that the male species gets it, they just don't want to let on. It might mean a little more work. For example: I might say, "honey, my plants in the front need watering, would you bring the hose around for me, and you know, all of my bird houses are falling down, you could pick them up and reset them for me." Ok, pretty simple... I water, you replace the bird houses! UMMM. This really translates into, "honey, bring the hose around for me and just stand there and watch me water the plants while my bird houses get soaked because they are all laying on the ground." Thanks a million.
Now, I know that not ALL men are this way. It is not necessarily a genetic thing, just something learned over the years of marriage. I suppose they think that if they appear not to understand our little subtle hints, they will never have to admit it when they do GET IT!
Another example; " I am really hurting today, I can't get comfortable." I would translate this into, "honey, could you park close to the door so I don't have to walk so far." He will translate this to, "I think I'll park in the south fourty so that no one will ding the side of my truck!"
Does any of this sound familiar? Or am I alone in this one? Could this be a lack of respect? I was recently informed that the male feels satisfied when he feels respected. Let me assure you it does go both ways. Please feel free to send me any of your examples of "honey do" translations so that I can figure out if I am being side wiped or just misunderstood. Have a great day.
My prayer: Father God, thank you for all the things you have allowed me to have, to share and to be. Thank you for all that you have given me. Thank you for my family. Especially my husband, whom I love dearly and would not trade for the world. Lord just give me the patience to put up with the things he "doesn't" do that irritate me. Lord, give me the strength to continue healing with little help from the other half. I know he has grown tired of all that he is now responsible for but maybe alittle reminder that one day I will be driving him around when his sight gets bad or his hearing is not the best and I will try to have more patience with him then andgive him the respect he deserves.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Don't Dance So Fast
Or listened to the rain Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down. Don't dance so fast.
Time is short. The music won't last
Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask "how are you?"Do you hear the reply
When the day is done, Do you lie in your bed,
With the next hundred chores running through your head?
You'd better slow down, Don't dance so fast
Time is short, and the music won't last.
Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch, Let a good friendship die?
Cause you never had the time, to call and say "Hi"?
You'd better slow down, Don't dance so fast.
Time is short, the music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere,
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift... Thrown away.
Life is not a race, do take it slower
Hear the music before the song is over.
Monday, June 27, 2005
A LITTLE TESTY?
Could be I'm getting alittle testy? I am not sleeping well at nights and can't get comfortable all day long, I do not want to live on pain meds so I try not to take them at all. I just want to be the me I was prior to both of the surgeries. I want to be fun loving, out going, driving, picking up my daughter whenever I choose and having a wonderful relationship with my husband. I hope I don't embarrass anyone but I want you to see what is taken for granted when you have any type of life changing surgeries. I am not exactly the same person. Not only do I now contain enough metal that price wise I could have retired to Missouri, I cannot act the way I did, sit the way I did, stand the way I did and so on.
I am not meaning to be complaining. God has led me here to this place for a reason, I am just one of those, who appreciates it when HE slaps me across the face and tells me what He wants me to do rather that the long drawn out process of an event like this. I am willing to open my mouth, my heart and my eyes to whatever He has instore for me but I'd really like to do it with a lot less pain.
My prayer: Father God, thank you for all that surrounds me, the air, the trees, my home, and all you have provided. Lord, thank you for my husband, without whom I would not have made it this far. Lord, you are my shepherd and I shall not want. ( will try not to anyway) Lord, take me to a place where I can see your face in these plans and let me know what it is you are teaching me besides patience so that I may begin your service. In Jesus name, Amen
Anyway, I checked out a blog site of one of my commentors and I really enjoyed his site. I also loved the fact that he linked to a purpose driven dog. haha yep read through his blog if you have time, say a prayer for his church, and look for the comment about a dog! Hysterical and fun read.
Sorry, I forgot to put in the link and you will find the story in the 15th post titled "A Different Type of Church Planting"
Sunday, June 26, 2005
God, Where are You?
My father has been diagnosed with cancer. FACT: painful
I just lost a friend who left us at the young age of 47. FACT: painful
A couple from my church has just lost a 3rd child and are grieving. FACT: PAINFUL
I am still suffering from effects of post surgical recovery. FACT: PERSONALLY PAINFUL
UPDATED: Today, I lost a wonderful uncle to cancer. FACT: More tears
I have been reading a book called, "TRUSTING GOD through TEARS" by Jehu Thomas Burton.
I have cried, smiled and screamed out in anger and frustration for the sorrow people have to go through in life.
FACT: God does not make the bad things happen but He does allow them to happen for His purpose. He alone knows the reasons. Please allow me to quote a section from the book.
This is Jehu speaking (writing).... "I believe that the individuals truly blessed of God are those of us who experience the fiery crucible of pain, tribulation, and trials, for it is during these times we are drawn closest to God. I can now see how God uses suffering as His most effective tool for changing everything about the way we live and how we treat other people. God's conforming hand is most active in our life in the midst of tribulation.
I have experienced a life-changing event-- one that has altered my nature, my view of life, my life's priorities, and my relationship with every person I shall meet for the rest of my life. God used the death of my son to change me, and these (in the book) changes are the fruit born out of my suffering."
(Colleen now) "When my son Ian died, I went through all the "normal stages of grief". I sulked, I cried, I didn't cry, I screamed, I was angry, I denied, I hurt. Alot.
I could not understand how God could allow a child to grow and spread love and joy everywhere he went and touch the hearts of everyone he met, only to take that away so quickly. Especially after we prayed and tried for him for so very long almost 10 years. Life is not fair. I still believe a parent should not outlive a child and that makes things even tougher. This Sept. 18th will be 5 years. Not long enough to have healed but long enough to learn how to vent my anger and sorrow. I have written 2 books. I have written many poems, and I have been learning how to speak to others dealing with the same type of loss. Losing a child. I have been bourne of God and set out by Him to minister to other moms and dads that have and will experience this tragedy. It is not something I wanted to do but God has made it clear that I will do it. I read every book I can find on the subject of losing a child and though all of them ring similar, none of them are my thoughts and feelings, my ideas or my prayers. Though many people say that grief follows the same patterns in all, just in different ways, and I do agree to a certain extent, I am absolutely positive that those people suffer differently and in great degrees of difference. I will continue to pursue the path that God is sending me on and will continue to pray for those who have lost a child or children as well as praying for those who will at some point join this unimaginably horrible support group.
I know many people who have gone through this pain and the ones that stayed strong in their faith and love for God, have all survived with a strength that only He can provide. Most of them even became stronger in their marriages and have been amazingly strong friends to me. God bless you, you know who you are. I cannot write anymore because it is becoming increasingly difficult to see the screen.
My prayer: Father God, Thank you for my family. The ones here and the ones gone before me. Lord, thank you for the air I breath and the fact that I awoke another day doing it, thank you for my friends, thank you for my children, the blessings that they bring me as well as the sorrow that comes with being a mother. You have blessed me many times and I cherish each blessing. Father, please continue to give me the strength that comes only from your mighty hands and give me the courage to keep going day after day for another 5 years and then be able to look back and say, "ok, it's been 10 years". Father, lead me continually down the road you have chosen and Father, be with each of those who have and will go through the tragedy of losing a child. Father I ask that you put a special blessing on a certain young ladies heart that has just lost another beautiful blessing from you and that you will one day rejoin all of us with our blessings in heaven. I cannot wait to see you and then my son. Thank you Father, in Jesus name, Amen"
Hang in there Paul. I do love you so very much.
My prayer: Father be with each of my family members today, my friends and even those whom I have never met. (yet) Guide my steps in your light and take Paul and I safely to and from the hospital tomorrow. Father, be with all who are hurting and surround them with your loving grace. Thank you Father God, in Your precious son's name, Amen
Friday, June 24, 2005
Monday, June 20, 2005
Words of Wisdom for the day.....
I was shocked, confused, bewildered as I entered Heaven's door,
Not by the beauty of it all, by the lights or its decor.
But it was the folks in Heaven who made me sputter and gasp--
the thieves, the liars, the sinners, the alcoholics, the trash.
There stood the kid from seventh grade who swiped my lunch money twice
Next to him was my old neighbor who never said anything nice.
Herb, who I always thought was rotting away in hell,
was sitting pretty on cloud nine, looking incredibly well.
I nudged Jesus, "What's the deal? I would love to hear Your take.
How'd all these sinners get up here? God must've made a mistake.
And why's everyone so quiet, so somber? Give me a clue."
"Hush, child," said He "They're all in shock. No one thought they'd see you."
Friday, June 17, 2005
Monday, June 06, 2005
I LOVE TRIPS
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Edie & Brian ---- I for one, among many, stand in awe of your success at marriage. I know that you have kept God at the head and let Him lead you through the tough stuff! I pray that my marriage will be an example some day and that God will tell me at the gates of heaven, "My child, you've done well, you have been successful at what I've shown you and you followed Me"!
Friday, June 03, 2005
JUST A NOTE
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Thank you God for my friends, thank you that we live in a country where we can study your word without fear of death, thank you for the blessings you have given me today and thank you for sending your son to die for my sins. Lord, I ask that you send me where you want me, that you'll guide me in the right direction, even if you have to slap me upside the head to understand, that you will be the map that leads me there and Lord I ask that you heal my father so that he may share many more years with his family . In your precious son's name, AMEN
QUOTE FOR THE DAY
there's a lot more information in our heads."
" I can live with that.