18 Years! Wow. Who'd have thunk it! Paul and I celebrate 18 years of marriage today. There were some days, long ago, when I thought I'd never find the right man. "THE ONE"! God had plans for me and I got alittle tired of waiting so I tried to find him on my own! Not a great plan but I tried. I failed. I did, however, learn some very valuable lessons that I know He meant for me to learn before placing His chosen one for me where I would find him. Praise God I found him. My life would be so empty without him and I would not have loved and learned and shared what I have and do with Paul if God had not created him just for me. After 18 years you finally start to find the "groove" and we are finally getting there.
There were many times I didn't think we'd make it.
In the beginning, I had trouble sharing Kendra with him. I would'nt let him discipline her or anything like that. God finally showed me that I needed his help in this area and I finally began to see that Paul really meant to stay and be a real daddy to her.
Sometime later, I began to doubt myself, my faith, my beliefs, my whole reason for existance. Paul showed me that not only did God create him for me, He created me for him. That's like a slap in the kisser for someone trying to find a way out!
Later, Kendra started presenting challenges that we had to get through together. I would not have made it without Paul and my family.
Then, Ian died. If anything would work against us this would have been it. I now believe that God has bigger plans for us and we will be together until God calls one or both of us home.
I also know that I love Paul like no other and will continue to try to honor him for all he is and does, for putting up with me, for dealing with all my surgeries and all the things that went with them and for still supporting me no matter what, unconditionally.

Paul, I love you with all my heart, soul, mind and body. I love you for who you are, what you are and where you are. I love you for every day we have together and will continue to love you when we are seperated. I love you for sharing my faith in God and for sharing my family and yours. I will love you forever and ever, till death shall us part and when that happens, if I should go first, I will wait for you at the gates of Heaven. You are my hero, my warrior, my love and my life. I will continue to pray for you every day that I draw breath. I will pass on to our children to love as we love and to trust as we trust and to believe as we believe. Thank you for each and every year, month, week, day, hour, minute, second, millisecond.......that you have given and shared with me. I pray for many more years to grow old together, to get wrinkled together and I'd say to grow grey together but since you already have that one down pat, I'll have to think awhile on another.


PAUL, I LOVE YOU MY HUSBAND!